I am super excited to be at church today. This week was fraught with its challenges but I am grateful for this oasis in time when usual does not obtain. We are allowed, in fact instructed to come apart and rest awhile. Happy Sabbath All!
Blessings!
Control
One of the hardest things for me is to cede control. As I draw closer to the date for chemo, I realize that that is my greatest concern. Not as much the effects of chemo drugs, hair loss or possibly really awful nausea, it is ceding control of my children and my home. I have my way, and although I can appreciate that it is not always right or the only way I still want to do it my way, and that’s the struggle. At the beginning of this journey I realized that God is working on me to make a kinder, gentler version of me and now possibly a version of me that will be less self-reliant and more God-dependent. Heaven help me hold on to this realization and daily cede my will to You. Thank You for these lessons and may they light my path and the path of others.
Blessings!
Stress
It’s insidious, it creeps into your daily life and quietly wreaks havoc with your body and mind. Ever since the diagnosis I have worked at reducing the things that stress me. Ha, easier said than done. Thankfully, one stressor in the form of my sick leave status was eliminated yesterday. It was finally approved up to 5/11 and when I return to the doctor I will have her complete paperwork to support an extension to the end of the school year. One word of advice to the hail and hearty or the not yet diagnosed, this is no cake walk, think about a fellow human! Thanks!
Blessings!
Chemotherapy
Today marks a week since our last visit to the Dr and we have been doing a lot of praying, thinking, and listening. We have arrived at a decision, chemotherapy it is! The plan is to continue to shore up my body and mind and around 5/18 begin chemotherapy. Please continue to pray for our family as we draw closer to this challenge. Jesus is Enough!
Blessings!
Faith
So on Saturday morning we shared my diagnosis with the boys. They listened quietly and asked a few questions. They seemed to take it pretty well but I decided to check in anyhow. I was sitting with Jacob last night and I asked him directly how he felt about me being sick. He said, ‘mommy I prayed about it and I am having faith that you are going to get better, and it seems to be working’ Praise God that He sends encouragement and comfort from every side.
Blessings!
He is Enough!
Slept for 5 uninterrupted hours last night, no sleep aid! Praying we have turned the corner on sleep issues. It’s been 3 weeks since the surgery. I continue to believe that He is enough despite new obstacles. Make it a great day All!
Blessings!
Its Another Sunday
I am so grateful for yesterday. It could have been so sad, but it wasn’t. I had the opportunity to share my story to church! And my friends came and shored me up! They came from work and other churches, even as far away as Atlanta!
It could have been a difficult day because at 7am we shared with the boys my actual diagnosis, CANCER! Jesus really was enough throughout our family meeting and they took it well! We told them yesterday could have been sad, at the end of service Jacob said, ‘but mommy, it wasn’t really that sad’ grateful!
So to update, my appointment with the surgeon on last Wednesday indicated that the original pathology of low malignancy potential cancer where no chemo is indicated was not the final diagnosis. Unfortunately, the final pathology report showed stage lllb metastatic cancer as well. What this means, is that chemotherapy is now being recommended as the treatment of choice to destroy any remaining metastatic cells.
Please continue to pray for our family that God will continue to direct our path.
Blessings!
Today is the day!
The day, I answer the call to me more than I have been. Today I speak at First University SDA church! This is so new and different, but truly exciting because I am assured that Jesus is Enough! He equips those He has called. In the name of Jesus! Happy Sabbath All.
Blessings!
Happy happy birthday my Jacob
Its here, its finally Jacob’s eight birthday. I ecstatic to be celebrating such an occasion given the events of the last few weeks. But God is enough and I rest on his promises.
My wonderful, curios, tenacious Jacob is 8. How time flies, I think of the many stages whe has gone through and the person God is shaping. I am grateful for the opportunity to be your mother and the joy of your present and hopeful for the promise of your future. I love you, my Jacob.
Blessings!
Things are swimming along
Doctor was pleased with my recovery so far. She thinks I can resume baths, drive and stay active, however she firmly discouraged competing in a marathon. I am not there yet so I am definitely on board with that. And no going back to work just yet.
In other news, I am super excited about tomorrow, its Jacobs 8th birthday. He does not have a long list of wishes but time with family and preferred foods are high on the list. Have a great day All!
Blessings!