One of the hardest things for me is to cede control. As I draw closer to the date for chemo, I realize that that is my greatest concern. Not as much the effects of chemo drugs, hair loss or possibly really awful nausea, it is ceding control of my children and my home. I have my way, and although I can appreciate that it is not always right or the only way I still want to do it my way, and that’s the struggle. At the beginning of this journey I realized that God is working on me to make a kinder, gentler version of me and now possibly a version of me that will be less self-reliant and more God-dependent. Heaven help me hold on to this realization and daily cede my will to You. Thank You for these lessons and may they light my path and the path of others.

Blessings!